date: Thursday, February 19, 2009 @ 12:53 pm
title: Monologue with Mr Freddy
I really need to live my life better. To be more independent and grown up. I cannot carry on to be immature in my thinking and lax with things that I am given. Also I feel that I dun have enough love for people. Dun have that compassion that Jesus had when he saw the multitude was without a shepherd. That justices for human rights that Nelson Mandela had as he grew up. That fight against all odds in his racist society that Sidney Poitier had when he was becoming an actor with substance and quality - Ist African American Oscars Best Actor.
I grew up in fantasies in my pocket, with unrealistic expectation of life, with fear of being known who I really was. All the pride, insecurity and head in the clouds.
I need to break out from that box. I need to be more secure of who I am as a person, who God made me to be.
Security is not about what prevents from gets inside of you from the outside, but what you do to filter the good from the bad, and keep the good inside and bad outside.
Keeping the ulterior motives to make use of people as stepping stones to my goals outside. Keeping the laxness about bad attitude outside. Keeping the laziness to go the extra mile outside. Keep the faithlessness of see things coming to pass outside.
Retaining the security in God and His faithfulness inside. Retaining the hunger to learn and never stop learning. Retaining the hope in people and situation that when God touches them - lives get change, situation get better. Retaining the love for people, that compassion for their souls, that fight for their faith, that warring for their behalf of their struggles. Retaining that never-ending concern for the relatives and friends on your left and right - who they will become if you did not step up to the occasion to give them the chance of having a better life and relationships.
When I change, everything around changes. When my vision changes, everything I see changes.
I want to have a spiritual 6/6 vision. Moses was 6/6 when his time to go came. He was the God's friend.
Vision for 2009 - Hunger. Boldness. Courage.
Points to work on - Humility. Relationship. Focus.
